Dreaming of Terrorists


ISISManWithCheckeredMaskDo y’all know the story of Daniel in the lion’s den? In Daniel chapter 6, King Darius appoints a bunch of guys to help him rule and plans to put Daniel in charge of everything. The other guys don’t like this and try to set a trap for Daniel by getting the king to agree that everyone should only worship him for 30 days. Daniel instead goes to an open window in his home and begins praying to God for everyone to see just like he does every day. Well, unfortunately the King had put in writing that anyone who disobeyed the new law would be thrown into a den of lions and left to be devoured. With great anguish, the King went ahead with his decree, dropping Daniel into a pit of lions and placed a stone over the opening, hoping that Daniel’s God would rescue him, but not quite knowing what would happen to his trusted advisor.

This weekend I was reading that story, and doing a study on faith. Faith is belief in action. As I was studying, Sarah woke up from her nap, and I left in the middle of the lesson, completely forgetting about it…until last night. I’ve told y’all that God talks to me through dreams a lot. Last night was a good one! It’s no secret that Satan has been wreaking havoc through terrorists lately. People are afraid of Islam, Muslims, Syrians, refugees, you name it. Pretty soon we won’t be able to get out of the shower and put a towel around our hair for fear we might either get hurt, or offend someone, depending on your perspective of the situation. Anyway, last night’s dream started off with me traveling somewhere without Wesley or Sarah. I was alone, heading to visit a friend, when at the airport I was rallied through screams to stop a terrorist coming down the escalator at our destination city. While I did turn around to face him, I did not stop him from getting through. The dream goes on with lots more details of me trying to escape the situation, but ends up with me and about 10 other women being corralled by terrorist gunmen several stories up in an office building on an outdoor patio. There was no escape. Most of the women were crying hysterically, but one suggested we start singing a happy song to get our minds off of it. I quickly interjected saying that I would start the singing and immediately began shouting in a made up melody that Jesus Christ was my savior and protector. Jesus Christ is the One and Only. Christ is our salvation. He is our rescuer! He is the only way! As I got louder and louder I shut my eyes and kept singing, fully expecting that we would start getting shot one by one, but wanting to go out in worship. After a few minutes of this I opened my eyes to see all of the women crouched in a huddle on the ground with not a single terrorist in sight! The dream ended with me excitedly telling the women the gospel of Christ…and then I was interrupted by cries in the baby monitor at 6:30am.

Daniel’s story ended quite the same way. He stayed the night with the lions, and the next morning the king rushed over saying, “Daniel, servant of the living God, has your God, whom you serve continually, been able to rescue you from the lions?” Daniel replied, “May the king live forever! My God sent his angel, and he shut the mouths of the lions. They have not hurt me, because I was found innocent in his sight.”

Is there something the Lord has asked you to step out and have faith in him for? Maybe it’s a terrorist attack you’re afraid of, or maybe it’s a move, or maybe you’re just afraid of tithing during December because there are Christmas presents and travel and that cute new purse that you saw on sale while you were Christmas shopping for other people that you really could use in your closet.

I’d like to give you two scriptures to wrap your heart and mind around:
1. Philippians 4:19 – And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.
2. Psalm 46
1 God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble.
2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
3 though its waters roar and foam
and the mountains quake with their surging.[c]
4 There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God,
the holy place where the Most High dwells.
5 God is within her, she will not fall;
God will help her at break of day.
6 Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall;
he lifts his voice, the earth melts.
7 The LORD Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.
8 Come and see what the LORD has done,
the desolations he has brought on the earth.
9 He makes wars cease
to the ends of the earth.
He breaks the bow and shatters the spear;
he burns the shields[d] with fire.
10 He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.”
11 The LORD Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.


Oh, and that part about Daniel saying he was found innocent? If you’ve accepted Christ as your savior there’s good news! Your sins have been paid for. You have been found innocent too!

Go in faith! Happy Thanksgiving!

– Debbie

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The Story: Part 4 – The Wall

IMG_0474It didn’t take but a few weeks before my loneliness got the best of me and I started hooking up with another guy that I’d met playing music at a bar. He was a really nice guy, but I still knew it wasn’t right. I felt like I had built a wall so high over the last 3 years that it was going to be impossible to knock it down, but God was doing some chiseling that I didn’t know about. It was slow, but he was making some cracks in the wall. Meanwhile, I was begging God for a way out of the mess I’d gotten myself into.

A few months later, in January, I signed up for a single girls small group Bible study at a church I didn’t go to, just to see if I could make some friends, and was randomly placed in a group of 5 or 6 girls. There was nothing magical about this group, but at least I was having one night committed to be with Christian girls. One girl and I became friends and started riding together. She shared her story, and it was something I could relate to. She hadn’t been the perfect girl either.

The group never took off, and therefore, fizzled within 3 or 4 months, but I continued to hang out with my new friend. The next month she called me and said, “will you go to this 5 week Bible study thing for women with me? I think you’ll really like it.” Me: “Sure, what’s the study?” Her: “It’s this study by a girl at my church who is writing a book on the topic. She is teaching on how to be a good girlfriend.” I was thinking, “Lord, shoot me now.” This is going to be a bunch of sorority girls with nice purses and curled hair cheering each other on, and NO, I won’t fit in and I don’t want to go. Not for me. Sorry. She called me again the next two weeks telling me how good the previous week had been and how I needed to come. By the third week, I gave in.

I really don’t remember the whole topic that night or any other points Marian made, but she was talking about emotional baggage. She asked something along the lines of, “what lies have people told you in the past that you’ve carried with you and believed?” At first I dismissed it. I have no baggage. I grew up in a great home. My parents are awesome. I’ve never struggled. I’m in this place because I put myself here. But then, as if God knew I couldn’t handle it all at once, my hand started writing all the lies one by one from 4 years prior that the guy from Nashville would say to me. Lies that at the time I dismissed telling myself he was an idiot, but that, until that moment, I didn’t realize I’d carried with me and believed deep down. Lies like, “You know you’re not a 10, you’re like a 6 or 7. Hardly anyone is a 10.” “When are you going to stop trying to play music and settle down? It’s not like you’re ever going to be as good as Taylor Swift.” But, here is the one that sank the deepest, “You’ll never be able to have that good Christian man you think you want. Guys like that don’t want used goods.”

Y’all, I sob as I write this. The depth at which that sank into my heart, is not just shameful, but makes my heart break immensely for every girl out there who feels this way. “…guys like that don’t want used goods.” It is such a terrible lie from the devil.

As I stared at the words on that journal page it was if I could visually see God busting down a big brick wall that surrounded me. Like I said early in the story, God speaks to me through visions and dreams a lot. I knew this was a breakthrough. I don’t know if I would have been ready to leave that baggage right there had I heard this lesson earlier or not, but that night, I left it right there with God. I said, “Lord, I won’t carry this lie any more. I need you to take it from me.” And just like that, it was gone. The next morning I was a new person. This is no exaggeration. I had no desire to hang out with any of the people I’d been hanging around or hooking up with, and never called them again. I can remember going to dinner with my parents and my brother and sister in law that week, I think for my brother’s birthday. I told them all of this and they looked at me like I was crazy! I was in tears! I was ecstatic! I felt 20 lbs lighter, and felt like I could smile again. I was a new person.

That next 12 months would then change my life forever. I wrote and recorded a new album of songs about redemption, I got a job leading worship at a new church where I felt like I could start fresh and ended up having wonderful community with the staff there, and I met the man who is now my husband!

I’ve been through a few small things and big changes since that year, but nothing like the wrecking ball of that four year period. God had to let me hit rock bottom before he remade me from nothing. I look back on 10 years ago when all was still well in Nashville. Thankfully, I’m still able to get together with those girl friends and talk for hours, and it feels like we were never apart, but I feel like I am a very different girl from back then. I’m sure we all are. I’m softer. I’m wiser. I’m less impulsive. I’m learning how to listen better. I’m much more gracious, knowing what the Lord has worked out in me, and believing that he can restore anyone. Restoration. Even that word gets me both choked up and really excited. So, who’s ready for an HGTV episode?

I challenge you to ask God to reveal to you the lies that people have told you or that you have created in your own mind about yourself. Ask Him to free you of those lies. We cannot undo the past, but He CAN redeem our future!

Just as an added bonus, I’ve linked two songs that were huge for me during my time of healing.

  1. Fix Your Gaze, by Lori Morrison
  2. Broken Things, by Julie Miller

Also, as a footnote, the book that was being written during that Bible study was Girlfriend’s Guidbook by Marian Jordan. (I’ve yet to read the book.)

Part 1: The Story

Part 2: The Feast

Part 3: When Godly People Do Ungodly Things

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